April 11th, 2008 @ 1:57 pm
One thing I never knew before I became a mom was that I would feel guilty all the time. I know this is unreasonable. My logical brain tells me that I am a good mom — that my son is awesome and my next son will be too. But man does that emotional part of my brain keep me in line when I get too cocky.
Here are a handful of things I feel guilty about as a parent — some rightfully so, some irrational:
- working
- working at home
- working at home in the evenings
- engaging in my hobbies
- letting my son watch DVD’s
- letting my son play video games
- letting my son see me play video games
- letting my son see me play video games where a house gets robbed and introducing a new fear of burgalars
- giving my son sugary foods to eat
- giving him pizza and french fries too often
- giving my son Cheerios and dried cranberries for dinner some times
- waiting too long to start my son in preschool
- taking my son out of day care
- leaving my son in day care too long
- forgetting to send cards to day care with Wyatt on Valentines Day
- not sending my son to a preschool that his friend attends
- not intuitively knowing everything that every other parent I meet already knows
- yelling
- losing patience with a three-year-old
- swearing in front of my son
- that one time I told Wyatt to “brush his f***ing teeth” and threw his toothbrush in the sink really hard (I still feel really guilty about this one almost a year later. I have a feeling I’ll take this one to my grave.)
- letting Wyatt skip baths
- not singing to the new baby in utero as often as I sang to Wyatt
- just beginning to document my current pregnancy
- eating fish while I’m pregnant
- eating goat and bleu cheese while I’m pregnant
- not sleeping as much during this pregnancy
- feeling stressed out during this pregnancy
- sometimes forgetting that I’m pregnant
What about you all? Anyone want to join in on the guilt-fest? Leave a comment if you feel up for it.
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keiki · motherhood · parenting · self-absorbed